Praying for help.

I feel like my life's crumbling around me..
What's the point of this? Who's this helping God? Where's this "perfect plan" ? Hear me out here. I need this to stop tearing me down so much. For the past 6 months I've been going crazy. I feel like no one listens. No one can help. The few that do, don't understand. I just need to cry...all the time. This can't possibly be normal? Is this what you have in mind for me?? I trust you have bigger and better things for me, I'm just struggling to understand your timing. Why do I need to hurt for this long? What am I waiting for? Why are all of these horrible things happening at the same time. It's not fair..
Even if this is all in the plan, can't I get just a little bit of comfort? Please?
Lord, I'm begging for you to help me. I'm miserable with life. I'm broken. I feel like I'm going to explode!!
But I guess you already know that huh?
All of these painful moments make me look forward to Heaven SO much more each day..
That's the point though, right?

I give all the glory to you Lord. Every second I feel joy or happiness, I praise you. When I'm in need, I call for you. So here I am, calling out for you. Begging for your endless love, mercy, and faithfulness. I need you Lord. Please hear my plead..